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Needless to say my homework in English is incredibly easy and it's not due until next wednesday since she cancelled class for monday and I'm already a third of the way done with the homework. I took my math test today and I'm fairly certain that I did a great job on it again. It only took me five or ten minutes longer than the other one did. He seems to keep them 20 questions and each is worth five points, in the end to give you a 100%. I'm really really hoping that I got a 100% on this one!!! I'd like to get one on at least one test. It would help the grade a lot since each one is worth 50% out of the total grade!!!!!

I also had to get off of facebook because I was finding too many pictures and I needed to stop. I'm an addict and I admit it. That's the first step. Oh, I found out this morning that One Tree Hill is not going to be new until March 9th!!!!!!! What kind of crap is that???!!!!!!!! Oh, well. I guess I will just have to watch the repeated episodes and catch up and season six, though I already LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SEASON SIX IS FREAKNG AWESOME AND LUCAS AND PEYTON ARE EXPECTING A BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (CONTINUES TO SMILE LIKE A MORON, BUT DOESN'T CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
I find myself making a lot of mistakes lately. I’ve been pretty horrible to one of my closes friends and not even sure if she realizes it all or not. It’s not that I don’t love her, because I do, it’s just her work ethic doesn’t meet mine, which saddens me; especially since I requested we hire her.
Growing up, I remember moving a lot. Some of the times we moved away, I wasn’t even old enough to remember it. However, there is one time that I will never forget. I had somehow gotten into the 6th grade and that happened only after my mom parked next to one of our favorite corner stores and asked me whether I wanted to move onto the 6th grade, or stay in the fifth. I almost immediately chose to go onto the sixth grade. This, among other smaller things, had been the best decision of my life.
Deep down inside I knew that I wasn’t ready to go to the sixth grade. The teachers didn’t seem to care, or believe in me enough to help me. When they looked at me, I saw them just think about how I was just a child who lied about everything I did. In some ways that was very true, but they denied me the chance to prove myself and become a better person. I didn’t know this then, but that was one of the worst feelings I would ever receive from anyone. Not having anyone believe in you, makes it difficult to believe in yourself. I may not change the world, like my friend Liz is going to, but I will try to change the way people see the world. Realize that there is someone out there who believes in them, because that is the greatest feeling in the world, and no one should have the power to take it away, or make you feel unworthy.
The decision to move onto the sixth grade was the one that made me meet my first, true best friend. We hadn’t known each other for long, and we both went to different middle schools. We met, because our lockers were right next to each other.
To describe the magic that happened on that day is impossible. We just hit it off, and forever remain in each others lives. I don’t know that kind of person I would be without her right now. Maybe in a ditch or doing drugs with other people who don’t want to feel the pain in the world, while missing the joy that is right in front of their face, but are too blind to see and feel it’s beauty.
The truth is, my grades in school were far from good, and I had to work really hard just to pass. Middle school was going to be different. The teachers looked at you differently and expected more, but when I thought my elementary school years were going to be difficult, I had another thing coming.
I remember everyday smiling and being happy walking to school with my sister and our neighbors, but by the end of the day I was sad, frowning, and feeling like no matter what I did, it wasn’t going to be enough to pass. If I had stayed at the current speed I was going, I would have to repeat the sixth grade. The only sad thing was, sixth grade had just begun. A few months in and I wasn’t even sure I could pass.
I always found myself admiring my sister, because no matter what she did, or how hard she tried, she was always good at everything. She had the best grade out of the three of us. My brother and I had very few things in common; our similar grades were one of them. The fact that we liked to fight, was another.
One thing I didn’t like to admit to myself was when my brother got sent into the hospital when we were little, and I cried so hard. I hated hospitals; I always have and probably always will. But when I would see him in there, asleep, I felt really scared. I thought once or twice that I was going to lose him. It scared the hell out of me. He was my big brother and fighting all of the time seemed to be the only way we could express our love for each other. It was this common factor that I knew to be true. Sure he would make fun of me for everything I did, but in the end I needed that. It somehow gave me confidence. I knew that in some coded message, he was telling me that he loved me, and I didn’t want to lose my big brother who I looked up to for so many things.
Joey was tough, when I couldn’t or wouldn’t be, and if I was being bullied or made fun of for something, he would take defense and stick up for me. That was his job and my sister’s job too. I felt protected and safe, even when the teachers didn’t want to take the time to help me, and that was a time when I needed the teachers most. They were never there, though.
Even in all the hardships I had, had in the past I had some good times too. The neighbors across the street from us were so different, but we were always invited to so many events with them, and my mom would do the same thing for them. They were part of the family. And they still are. I think about them all of the time, and it’s not because I don’t love Manchester, I do; just like everything else, it has its ups and downs. To be honest, I miss the people that I knew back then. Life was simpler, I was free to just be a kid and make all of the mistakes that I want. I had more trust in people and making one bad decision didn’t exactly affect the rest of my life. Yet, I find myself drawn to my new one. I can’t wait to one day move out of Michigan and build the third chapter in my life. I can’t wait to become a counselor and help people, whether it’s young kids, or grown adults wishing they were kids again. I’m here and I want to make a difference in some one’s life. Have someone for people to believe and have hope, where at home maybe there isn’t any. I could be that person and I know deep down inside of me I can be, but I need more faith in myself before that can possibly happen.
I do definitely have some regrets. Since working at the market things have changed in my life. Some of the changes were good, others were not. I’m becoming more confident in myself, and taking some risks; yet at the same time, I’m more scared to take risks and I’ve seen just how close minded people can really be. That only makes me sad, but I’m learning that there are VERY MANY people in the world who are like that.
I’ve also only had two boyfriends in my entire life. It hasn’t been a long one, I’m only 21 years old and I know I was never in love with anyone of them. I just dated them because, I still don’t understand why, I just did.

Writer's Block: Back to School

What fictional high school—from tv, film, or a book—would you most like to attend? Or would you rather never go near high school again, fictional or otherwise?

Veronica mars. Hands down, neptune high. Though high school was easy for me.


I just wanted to let you know that this will probably be my last entry for a while. School ends today and doesn't start back up again till january 12th. Oh, I do have to come to school on friday, but I don't think I will be using the net. Anyway, here's my update. Bought DARK KNIGHT yesterday, watched it. Saw Sylar burn Elle again, made me sad, read some fanfictions and studied for my final, which I have to do again. right now though. Have a good break people!!!!!!!!!!!!! And a good christmas.

I caved

Ok, so...you know how I said that I wasn't going to watch anymore of Heroes, season 3?? Well...I caved and decided that I wanted to see how it ended. It's got me hooked, but NBC has Kristen Bell to thank for me watching Heroes, I couldn't feel enough attention to it before in Season one. It happens, I know. But, still. Kristen's character was amazing and I'm still saddened that she is dead, but at least she had a great run on the show, right? I'm hoping she gets an Emmy for her guest starring role on it. If not, then she deserved it. Just look at the past ten episodes from which she was in and you'll see what I'm referring to. Well...I need to feed my addiction and get more pictures. Have a good day people. And drive safe, "the weather outside is weather!" That's from the movie Forgetting Sarah Marshall. Paul Rudd said the line if anyone was curious about that. lol.

my computer!!!!!!!!!

Well...I FINALLY got my computer back from Best Buy late last night. I can't tell how good that it feels or how lost I felt the week and one day that I was gone without it. It's funny though, I went so long without having one and it was no problem, but then I adjusted to the comfort of having it since I missed it oh so dearly. Check my facebook status that I used while on my phone. The proof is there.
So....while I was loading all of my precious information back onto my computer last night, I watched Elle bit the dust again. It affected me so much more after watching it the second time. Yet I was still able to smile due to the very beginning with Elle and Sylar. It's just I felt like my heart was being ripped out and my body was shaking since I knew what was going to come later on. yeah I know, I'm weird, but you know what, I know what I like. And I'm passionate about something. People are at their best when their passionate about something. Ask Nicholas Sparks, he agrees with me. The character Savannah in the book "Dear John," that I'm reading by him confirms it. Have you ever read a Nicholas Sparks book? You should. So far there are only two by him that I don't like, but most of the time I'm usually raving about his books. The movie The Notebook, A Walk to Remember, and now Nights in Rodanthe are based off his books. I've read them all and they're AMAZING, ok. Take my word for it if you want, or don't, Either way it's up to you.
Well...I need some more pictures so....I gotta go. I promise to write more in it next week. My last week at school this semester and my easiest chance to access the internet when I want. That's kind of depressing, but hey, school starts up again on the 12th I think for me, so I should hopefully make it ok. lol.
P.S. I woke up with that funny song while dreaming about the whole Elle scenary again. It happens, and the beginning kind of sort of in a stange way makes sense.

last nights heroes

I have to say, I feel so depressed and sad today. When they killed Elle yesterday, I knew that she was going to die, I just couldn't or wouldn't believe that it would have been Sylar to kill her. I know, he's Sylar. But, to quote Mandy Moore in A Walk to Remember: "I thought I saw something in you. Something good. But I was VERY wrong." I thought that there was good in Sylar, I did. But, he just used her to get to his own ends. Elle though, she really did like him. I know she did, just look at her facial reactions and her eyes when she talked to him. You didn't need words to know that she liked him. And to make Sylar's betrayal that much worse, he was the one who kissed her in the first place!!!!! He brought them together, only to tear it so horribly apart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm deeply saddened by his betrayal. Elle was truly one the of greats in that tv show and she had so much depth to her. She wasn't just evil because, she was about as complicated a character as they come. And there was so much story and potential there that we the audience will now probably never get a chance to see. It just makes me so sad.
However, I hope that Kristen Bell receives an award for her performance as Elle!!!!! She performed so beautifully!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It even turned my friend around to liking her, and great acting like that doesn't come around as often or as well as she does. So...if Kristen does get an award, it is well deserved. And trust me, I know movies and people pretty well, and she's just about one in million!!!! Alyssa Milano couldn't even manage to pull off what Kristen can. And I like Alyssa Milano as an actress. But, these two side by side, it's Kristen hands down. No offense, Alyssa. I hope to see Kristen soon, and if not, I know that I can hear her every monday night at 8pm since she is the voice of Gossip Girl. And hey, don't forget to mark your calendars for February 6, 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kristen's new movie Fanboys comes out in theaters then, and it looks like it will be HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope that people plan on coming and seeing it with me. It's not so much fun going to the movies by yourself. This I know. Well...I need to change this profile picture and then my one on facebook. It's too depressing to look at. Though, it was sweet the EXTREMELY SHORT time that it lasted.

english paper

I can't believe that I did SO WELL on my english final exam paper!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I only wish that all of my other papers would have come out so nicely!!!!! Anyway, I got a B+. That should really help me with my english grade some. As long as I do well on the porfolio. And the cool thing about that too, is that my teacher changed the due date from next monday, to next wednesday!!!!!! Sweetness, because now I won't have to work so hard over the break to try and get it done and not do as well on it as I could have, if we had a little longer to do it. Yay!!!! Oh, my mom says that we are supposed to get one to three inches of snow today, and she says that it's slick. Be careful on the roads today people. You don't have to drive so fast. Driving slow gets you to the same destination and safely. Don't be dumb and risk other peoples lives. It's not worth it. HEROES IS NEW TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kristen Bell I hope that you rock my world some more tonight. I can't get enough Heroes, it's like a drug lately. Thankfully there is a cure. WATCH MORE HEROES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL.


I just finished my final exam for english and since for some reason I was the first one done, I didn't want to be the first one to turn mine in. I spent an hour and a half prepping for it so that way it would be easier and then I made sure that I brought my mp3 player because for some reason this semester I can't write in complete silence. Weird, I know. Anyway, I think that I did well on it. She said that it only had to be three pages long and I thought that I wasn't going to be able to make it, but "stupid stupid" Amber. I have almnost four complete pages!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whitney jokingly called me an over achiever. Lol. She's funny. So....I absolutely watched the heroes episode again last night and I even got out my camcorder and recorded some sylar and elle moments. I want to put what I recorded on facebook, but I fear the copywriting problems and don't want to get into trouble because I did it on purpose and just for fun for me. At least now it will be on my computer and I can watch it whenever I want. Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Kristen Bell is amazing and I'm sorry for changing my profile picture again. There is just something so beyond amazing about it. That was a great episode!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ELLE AND SYLAR BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


elle bishop

So...I found the pictures from the last season three episode of hereos that I've wanted since the night I saw that AMAZING episode!!! Bad news, the site isn't good for pulling off the pictures and putting them onto my computer. So... I'm looking through any other site than I can find to get them. If anyone is available to help me that would be just great. I want them from the episode: "Eris Quod Sum." Preferably, one of the ones from where elle and claire are chilling. Like when they first meet again in the house and have that hilariously funny fight scene, to the part where they are in the plane and in the end. Basically, any scene that my all time favorite actress, Kristen Bell is in. That would just make my day, week, month, heck even year depending on the quality and stuff of the picture. Lol. Thanks a lot for any and all of your help.
P.S. I did watch both Veronica Mars and Forgetting Sarah Marshall last night. I LOVE THAT MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!